Looks like my path ahead is going to be less smooth. My night job as a Dishwasher is going to end soon. Probably, by the end of this month. Money is going to be tight again, but after more than a year of being unemployed, it has taught me to be very frugal.
At least I have a few more days to plan ahead. I am not sure if I should get another night job or just be happy with the ones I can hold on to. But I do know that I have to at least recover my costs spent on my new laptop, so that I can take my drawing courses.
People kept saying that I don’t need such courses if I have the talent to draw; it’s basically a courteous way of saying that I don’t have the talent at all and to forget my dream. But, that is not the point. They just don’t understand that what I seek is to live a life free from games most people play in the office environment. In other words, office-politics. I want to build my own world where people can treat each other with respect and dignity regardless of beliefs, the colour of our skin and which level of society we are born into. And if I am unable to find enlightened organisations that runs on the same principle, I guess I have to start one of my own.
Sure, it may sound naive and delusional, but at least it has kept my sanity from the bigotry that I faced regularly. And I don’t even want to start what our own political leaders have recently mentioned about my religious faith. The sad part is, there are countless others who agreed with what our Minister Mentor said; and I kind of feel betrayed. My loyalty to my country is questioned again just because of my beliefs?
But, then again, I am not the problem. They are. It just makes my life harder but I am not angry at them. In fact, I pity them. They claim to be intellects but they have proven they are mere intellectual pygmies who are stuck in the past, vigorously trying to protect their legacy built on discriminatory and biased practices.
I definitely am not looking forward to meeting such people again when I start looking for new work to supplement my income.
